Ghost

From the start you were a choice I made on a whim

Had no idea that I'd actually win

Someone who brings me peace of mind deep in my bones

Someone who awakens my heart to give my soul

Someone who empowers me to be a better me

I'm outta my mind and head over heels for you

Blind to reason and don't know what I'm gonna do

Our passion is fire and our connection true

Whatever the pace, I matched yours

Step for step

Stroke for stroke

Kiss for kiss

Each moment—bliss

You

A soul with two sides

Each I saw and loved as a whole

Beautifully complex

Mysteriously intuitive

Generous of mind, heart and spirit

I didn't care what package you came in

Just that you arrived

And I unwrapped your layers with impetuous glee

Happy to discover whatever I found as a treat to me

Relief flooded from within

To a find another glacier

To match my own

Someone with the depth of an abyss

And a heart to match

Yet lately you've been a cagey mess

Instead of spending more time, we're spending less

Emotionally cold and increasingly distant

Now you're a ghost

Disappearing just as quickly as you materialized

Now I'm left here with my heart in my hands

I made no demands

On your time, your freedom, or for communication

I gave you the space for you to be you

I wanted you to know that you found an ally

I merely lifted your wings so you could fly

And fly away you did

With no hint of return

Now you're a ghost

I'm left haunted in your wake

Your impression burned into my soul

Engraved into the walls of my heart

Your warmth ripped from my grasp

Should of known this greatness wouldn't last

The vestiges of hope

Escape me like the last breath I gasp

Don't want to cry

But I bleed all the same

Broken pieces of a mirror

I thought I saw in you

Have I woken from a lucid dream?

Cursed in remembering every taste

Every touch

Every smile

Having to accept that the dream is over

Well before it ever began

I found happiness in a moment

That was you

But now you're a ghost

At least now I know that I'm ready to love

Now I'm ready to be the partner I want to find

Someone who will run to me

And not fly away

Someone who will share what they feel

Even if it doesn't make sense to them

Someone who will let me in

Even if it scares them

I'm ready to grow with the right kind of love

We don't have to be forever

But we have to be in this together

Weathering whatever storm

Allowing our relationship take form

Supporting each other

Cherishing one another

Facing each other

And not backing down from what we find

I'd stay an eternity

For you

Me

The wandering soul gypsy

And I'd stay for you

Me

Scared that you'll rip my heart out

Scared that you will discard me

Like a used condom

Necessary in ensuring your own safety

Fulfilling your needs

Easily disposable

Yet here I stand

Fear ripe on my tongue

Swallowing my pride

Ready to fight for you

But you're a ghost

An icy memory

Of a fiery, soul-igniting passion

The pregnant silence left

Long after the music has died

The ache I get in my belly

Hours after my last meal

The emptiness felt

After realizing you're not alone

Just lonely